A lil realisation...

Summer is going by quick & fast, at uni I'm lucky enough to have 4 months off but it still seems like time is flying by. Much like my degree. When I finished back in June I was officially a third of my way through my degree which is a very scary prospect indeed! 

Before starting uni I'd lost count of the amount of people who told me to enjoy every second because it goes so fast- they were totally right! A year ago I was extremely anxious about going to uni because I was never the girl that people liked at school, I was the awkward, weird, quiet one so I thought uni would be the same story, but so far it has been the best time of my life. It really has felt like I've finally been accepted as lil old me. I'd no longer call myself an introvert because I finally have the confidence I've always dreamed of. 

Course wise I hands down chose the right degree for me, which when you think about it is hard to do when there are so many different courses out there. Uni wise I couldn't imagine myself anywhere else, honestly hand on heart when I say this I couldn't have been surrounded by better people. I saw this tweet a while back basically saying "even if my degree doesn't get me anywhere in life, the debt is worth it for the friends I've made". Personally that really hit home exactly how I felt- obviously I do hope my degree does get me somewhere though. 

First year was a blast and I really hope second year will be the same. Although I am going to knuckle down and study harder this year because I have goals that I really want to achieve this year. I've recently discovered what I really want out of life and I'm so determined to work hard to achieve it. 

I only ever intended to do a little post today because as you're reading this I'll be jetting off to Spain for a much needed vacation. I wanted to squeeze this post in though just before I go. Originally I had wanted to keep posts scheduled for whilst I was away but I don't quite know where the time went. Plan B though is to plan content whilst away so that when I get back I can seriously sort out my blogging game. 

I feel so ready for a break, I'm in desperate need of a chance to really relax and recharge my batteries. So it might be a few weeks till I blog again but I'll try to keep you guys up to date via my socials. 

Hope you guys have a great day & I'll speak more soon. 

X

Pictures taken from Google.

Twenteen

Turning T W E N T Y or the big 2 0...

For a while I kinda wanted to refuse admit to turning Twenty this year because I was nervous to leave my teens. I know most people don't agree with this but for me turning 18 didn't seem like a big event, fair enough my parents & friends made it a great day. Although at 18 you're classed as an adult I still didn't feel like one so I was happy to still be a teenager. Turning 20 was a different story, it kinda hit me how fast I was growing up and whilst I'm excited for the future, at times I'm still not sure I'm ready pay bills, work 9-5 (if you're lucky) & be in charge of your own life. It feels like the future's coming quick & fast, I kinda wish it would slow down. 

Still I had a great 20th birthday, I got lovely gifts from family & friends and enjoyed stuffing my face with yummy food all day. What more could a girl want? 

On my actually birthday I had a quiet day which was nice to relax/ chill and spend time with Willow. I went out into town on the day after with friends because as you've probably guessed already Uni has taught me the love of clubbing. 

Turning 20 though has made me realise a few things that I'd wished I'd know entering my teens:

1. Quality over quantity. 

Apply this to every aspect of your lives but especially friends and your wardrobe, growing up I felt the pressure to have loads of friends but on my birthday it dawned on me that it's the close few friends that really make an impact on your life. 

2. Makeup isn't a necessity. 

It's kinda weird you'd think I'd be wearing more makeup now I'm older but actually it's the opposite. Certainly in early teens I wore a lot of makeup because I didn't feel comfortable in my own skin so I felt it helped me to accept myself more. But over the last year I have really grown to accept myself as I am more than I ever thought I would. I just feel happy in myself, confidence really is the best makeup you can wear. 

3. Your will find your own style (eventually).

You'd think that doing a fashion based course I'd have been a very fashionable teenager (lol no), I actually cringe at the thought of some of the things I wore growing up because they certainly didn't suit or flatter me. Still I'm sat here today finally happy with my style. 

4. Be a kid whilst you can. 

There is that saying that adults say to a lot of children growing up "don't wish your life away", aged 13/14 I saw those years as irrelevant because they just seemed so pointless, I wanted to get to 16, 18 or 20 because then I could do whatever I wanted. In reality I wish looking back that I'd just enjoyed being a kid for longer- you grow up so quickly, enjoy it!

5. I can still class myself as Twenteen.

Okay so I maybe be 20 but I not ready to say goodbye to my teens just yet so I think I'll hang onto them for a lil longer. 

Turning 20 honestly doesn't really feel any different to being 19. I feel a lot more comfortable in myself entering my twenties then I ever did entering my teens so I'm glad of that. 

Blog wise my twenties are gonna be the years I make it happen. 

Hope you all enjoyed this post.

I'll see you all very soon, take care.

X

Pictures are all my own. 

It's okay to admit it...

Welcome back!

Well it's been quite a while hasn't it? 

The last time I blogged was back at the beginning of June so I'm sorry for probably being the most inconsistent blogger ever. Truth is I just hit a wall when it came to blogging- I lost all my motivation & suddenly the thought of sitting down to write just didn't feel right. 

Since the last time we spoke I've officially finished first year (which I'm not going to lie I still find a little crazy), I moved back home, been on a mini break to Liverpool, found out I've passed first year & turned twenty. 

So I've been just a little bit busy...

All of which I'd love to blog more about over the upcoming days to help me get back on track.

If I'm honest life has felt a bit surreal recently, finishing first year really hit me hard- it's quite scary to think I'm already a third of the way through my degree. Still I'm so happy with my grade for first year, and it makes me so determined to squeeze every opportunity out of second year.  

Probably the biggest change I've experienced lately is turning twenty, the big 2 0! 

Personally I was dreading this birthday, partly because it's starting to daunt on me just how quickly I'm growing up and whilst I'm excited for the future, it's still scary to think you're not a teen anymore. I moan all the time to my parents that I feel old, normally they just laugh at me & tell me I'm being silly but seriously I'm closer to 30 than 10 now so it's scary stuff! 

The pass few weeks have made me realise a few things that I want to change about my life, not because I'm not happy with where it's going now, just because I feel it's about time I gave myself a 'reality check' (probably the most cheesiest American thing I've ever said)...

1. Stop having your glass half empty!

Literally & metaphorically because I probably should drink more water and less alcohol. But seriously I always look on the negative sides of every positive and it annoys even me. Take the whole turning 20 thing, I hated the fact I'm not a teenager anymore or that I'm pretty much an official adult now but actually this is the time when I can really try to make my dreams a reality! I'll let you all into a little secret, growing up I was an optimistic child to say the least, I'd always said that I'll earn my first million by the time I'm 21. Seeing as that's now next year and my job perspectives aren't looking hopeful for Summer, chances are that's probably not going to happen. But you never know- the only person standing in my way is myself...

2. Be more organised!

Honestly it's amazing I got the grade I did for first year because my focus wasn't at all on my degree, which is stupid & silly considering the cost and how much doing well could change my life in the future. Organisation went out the window with my motivation for the majority of the year. I lost sight of why I'm doing the course I'd been dreaming of since I was little! I was never someone who signed up to uni for the party life because a year ago that wasn't me. A year later that's a different story, I love my friends to pieces and I really value the fun times! Second year though things need to change... if I want to do well I need to strike more of balance.

3. Make the blogging thing work!

For 2/3 years now I've been doing a lil bit of the blogging 'thang' not because I had to but because I wanted too. Over these few years I had so many people tell me it will never come to anything & honestly that just makes me more determined to prove them wrong. Growing up I was that child who one minute wanted to be a Vet and the next a Fashion Designer, I was constantly swapping & changing my mind because truth is nothing ever felt right. I'm not saying blogging will be my career but right now it's what feels right and I'd be a fool to ignore that. 

4. Don't force it!

Relationships are another thing I'm always moaning to my parents about (I promise I'm not just constantly moaning to them!) partly because I thought I needed someone else to make my life complete. When really that's not the case, okay so it would be nice. But I love my life just the way it is right now, it's perfect for me without a boyfriend. After all you can't miss what you never had... frankly if it's going happen than it will, if it doesn't then it wasn't right- I'm done with forcing things. 

Starting from now, I'm going to put into life what I want to get out of it!

Meaning over the next few weeks you'll see some changes on here- hopefully for the better. 

It's good to be back- I've hoped you've enjoyed this post, I promise it won't be as long till the next one. 

Take care & I'll see you all very soon.

X